Okay, well, that break up was short lived. Turns out love is not lost, but redefined. So, onto some new lessons. You know, I went back to school in my 30s, retrained, got a great job, and thought I was done with learning. Now the lessons are coming at me thick and fast. You’d think I would deserve a break. Yes, yes, I know, you stop learning, you die. Or something like that. Wouldn’t it be nice though just to coast through life? At least for a day or two?
Here are my new lessons. When someone is under duress and freaks out, give them 24 hours to calm down before taking them at their word. Chances are they will come to their senses. Like WM who realized he just might have thrown the baby out with the bath water, and is now back to his old amorous self. Boys are stupid, throw rocks at them.
Lesson two, and this is a biggie for me. I need total validation from men that they like me. I am totally pathetic on this one. Here is how my day went. At 1 p.m. I sent WM a text message and he immediately responded. At 4 p.m. I had an anxiety attack because I hadn’t heard from him again. The man has the flu!!!! At 7 p.m. I send him another text message. At 8 p.m. I am convinced he is breaking up with me. I have a total anxiety attack. I finally check my phone and turns out while I am working my way into a state of blithering idiocy, he is texting to tell me he loves me.
I am a sane, intelligent woman. I live on my own and am learning to fix my own plumbing. I can run a 2.5 million dollar project at work. But put a man in front of me whom I like and I fall to pieces. Oh I so need to work on this one. I am sure there is some deep rooted reason for my reactions, but I’m way too lazy to go there. I think I’ll look up tricks on how to beat nicotine cravings and try those. When you crave a cigarette, or a man’s validation in my case, go for a walk, take a long shower, call a friend. Or blog it out and tell the world how ridiculous you are!
Anybody have similar states of silliness? What do you do about them?
Urban Panther
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